We went back to see Dr V last week to have the stitches out and look at the pictures taken by the camera during the op. Stage 2 Endometriosis is the diagnosis - the laparoscopy was the cure, and cutting down on my stress significantly is the prescribed treatment to keep it away.
What is stressfull in my life... Ive been working 2 jobs, one of which I am not being paid for which makes affording all of this fertility treatment near impossible. The worry that we will have to dig into precious savings to afford the next steps whatever they may be.
My biggest source of stress is financial, if I have to sum it up in a word.
So we have eliminated the source of the stress - I have resigned from the missions organisation that I was working with, my last day being the 30 June. No more the missionary, back to to my old company, who kept me on part time after I resigned, hat in hand to ask for my full time position back.
No questions asked, and after a little negotiation, they accepted me back. Praise the Lord for these two men, who allowed me the opportunity to try something out, and are allowing me the to come back to full time employment.
My heart is sad that I wont be a part of the mission organisations next set of adventures. I want to say that I feel like I have let them down, but I don't think I am. I had a word, that this would be for a season - boy was it a short one. If all I achieved was giving the Directors the freedom to go overseas and do what needed doing then I am glad that I could add that value. I was perfectly positioned, in a job that would give me the freedom and the flexibility to take a 5 month gap, with the space in my home to house the office, with the managerial skills and the wherewithal to do what needed doing at the time. God used me in it. I dont know that I would have been open to being used in this way had I known the specifics up front.
I just hope He was finished with what he was doing and I am not bailing on an unfinished work...
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